I can’t believe I’ve been here for 6 weeks, only 4 left, and
already my heart feels the weight to come. Ya know I heard all about summer
projects (especially the San Diego one) before coming here, I’d heard how
awesome and fun and cool they are. But I don’t think I’d ever heard how truly
transforming they are.
Not to say I’m a different person, but my life is already different. I’m not
fixed, actually, one thing this experience has shown me is that I’m more broken
than I ever could’ve imagined. John Piper has a quote:
“God is always doing 10,000 things in your life, and you may be aware
of 3 of them.”
No joke, my breath has been taken away again and again at the
reminder that God loves me and that’s
the big picture. But I struggle with…God
loves you. But I don’t do…God loves
you. But I don’t think…He loves you.
And that’s it. You never get past that. Day in day out, no matter what, that’s
the point.
This summer I’ve been reading through Isaiah, and God has
continued to point out his plan from the very beginning. His plan wasn’t ruined
by Adam and Eve’s choices. His plan from the beginning was to die on the cross,
to free the captives and to be acknowledged and praised by all peoples because he is worthy.
I don’t know about you, but that is freaking. Awesome.
But, back to the beginning, along with continual epiphanies
and heart wrenching realizations. I’ve come to love California—not exactly the
state, honestly (and don’t hate me for this) I miss my cornfields and cows, I
miss John C. Fremont Days, and the buzz of a window air conditioning unit.
But if you would’ve told me that I would fall in love with
people I’d never met and happily live with 13 other females all under 20,
sharing 2 bathrooms and 1 fridge. I probably would’ve laughed.
Then again, God’s funny that way.
I am in love with some of the most beautiful people in the
world. Young men who desire to grow in their relationship with Christ, to look
more like him daily, rejecting passivity and growing in truth. Young women who
are strong, wise, lively, with the most tender beautiful hearts you could
imagine seeking to grow more in love with their Savior everyday. How could the
idea of leaving not weigh on my
heart?
With these thoughts, Acts came to mind,
Acts 2:44 “And all who believed were together and had
all things in common”
But jump to chapter 8, and the believers are persecuted and
scattered—Because that’s God’s plan—to
spread his good news to all people.
I ask that if you read this, you’d be keeping us all in your
prayers, because that’s what’s going to happen for all of us on SDSP, we’ll be
scattered, returning to our homes, schools, jobs; and we’re taking all we’re
learning here with us. Pray that God would continue to stretch us while we’re
here and continue to grow us in this beautiful community, impacting San Diego
and our own hearts.
I ask specifically that you’d be praying for Wayne, that God
would create revival, that we wouldn’t be just staying afloat, but that his
Spirit would be thriving there—impacting the campus and the town. That men and
women would be willing to let God use them, to take us further than we ever
imagined possible.
In the wake of leaving San Diego, I was reminded today that
my God is greater than any circumstance. That the amazing experience I’m having
here isn’t a once in a lifetime thing—this community is not made out of luck or
a ‘good group’ it’s made because of Him.
And he has an awesome
plan.
“Arise, shine, for your light has come, and the glory of the Lord has
risen upon you.”
Isaiah 60:1
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